I started off 2011 in a fit of tears.
You know the kind. You try to choke them back until they overpower you, leaving you emotionally open and vulnerable to the world that surrounds you? Yes. That was me. Standing in a room full of people, but alone with God. At that moment, I felt more peace and solitude than I had felt in a very long time.
The tears, were flowing from a place at the bottom of my heart; much deeper than the joy of seeing a new year. I was filled with gratitude for all of the things I had been blessed with in 2010, namely, my first degree…the people I met…overall health and general happiness. But along with the gratitude, I felt a slight twinge of insecurity.
I have been climbing this mountain toward success, but I’m at the point where the clouds are covering the peak. I have no idea where my foot will land next. It’s that unsure feeling that can really take you to a dark place of fear, that is, if you let it. It’s very similar to that feeling you get when you’re about to fall over, and you find yourself desperately flailing your arms and grasping for something to hold on to… to steady yourself… for security. Continue reading